I feel content knowing that I am also not taking attention away from, or standing in front of, someone who can more effectively speak to the issue.
You may have noticed that I have not written a blog post for a few weeks. It is definitely not for a lack of things to write. There has been plenty going through my mind and a great number of things that I could have used this platform to try and work through. The past few weeks have been more about staying quiet for a minute and listening to the concerns surrounding Black Lives Matter. I have been silent out of respect and hope that with this initial silence there was an understood show of support.
I need to further educate myself on the issue before I open my mouth. In order to come even a step closer to an understanding, I must be able to read articles/books from subject matter experts. I must take the time to listen to respected leaders talk about the issue of race in this country and truly open myself up to what they are saying. This is a time of investigation and learning for me and I am afraid that my still ignorant words on the topic may hinder more than help the situation. It seems to be a trend that when there is an issue, people of privilege feel that they must be the first to speak because their opinion is what matters. They can offer THE solution.
Conversation starters are fantastic if they are done as a way to build community. There is a fine line between a person of privilege trying to make their voice heard to affect change and a person of privilege trying to show those around them that they are not a part of the problem. It is a difficult line to walk and I think that it is only with time, education, truly listening that one can start to speak on the subject and affect change. I hope that one day I can get to the point that I can feel my words may have an impact. I have started with an audience of one, myself. If I have questions I think it best to reach out to the experts and not the same people in my social circle that have yet to organically provide those answers before now.
Others may disagree with this course of action. They may feel that silence is not the answer and yet another example of my privilege. That by staying silent I am doing nothing to help. I respectfully disagree. I feel that I am providing myself the tools to be better equipped to tackle the issue. I am not naive enough to think that I can appropriately speak on any issue as some feel that they are. By understanding my limitations and staying silent, I may not be helping the cause, but I feel content knowing that I am also not taking attention away from, or standing in front of, someone who can more effectively speak to the issue.
If I have questions I think it best to reach out to the experts and not the same people in my social circle that have yet to organically provide those answers before now.